Still awake on a winters day
  skies are gray and it's cold
  Smoke signals from my last cigarette
  Lets me know that it's finally getting old
  Everybody hates me for the night before
  The man you saw wasn't me
  And now there's blood upon the bathroom floor
  I've got a disease
    Wait a while all I need is a friend
  Come on stay a while won't you please understand
    I'm fucked up with nothing ahead by the end
  I know that I'll never get sober
  And I'm fed up with this miserable life after death
  I know that I've taken my last breath
    Memories of how it used to be
  Painted thick on my walls
  Cold illusions pumping through my veins
  Felt them there but I didn't hear them call
  Washed away all my darkest fears
  Shoved them down to my soul
  I keep them aged llike a vintage wine
  I'm sure they'll come out when they're ready to go
    Thanks to Calixto (calixto_usa@hotmail.com) for these lyrics